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I’ve always thought that this photograph captured the utter agony that the task of food and eating can become when you have an eating disorder. People who aren’t sufferers don’t realize how hard it can be sometimes to simply lift that spoon to your mouth without having any mental torture associated with it.
(Source: c-r-e-e-p-i-n-g-d-e-a-t-h)
How long have you all had your eating disorders for?
Ate way too much.
I’ve eaten a lot today,
I didn’t eat breakfast, but then I ate some Nutella (only a bit, 45-50 cals approx) but still, urgh, and then I ate 2 chicken nuggets and about 10 chips when I was out as my lunch, and then for dinner I had abit of egg rice with ham in it, tiny bit of the chicken I had with cucumbers and lettuce.. then to make matters worse, I went and ate 2/3 of this chocolate mousse tub that I was ‘sharing’ which had like 348 calories in the whole tub so that’s like 200 at least.. but during the day I was also drinking some banana milkshake :/
So my end total intake comes to an approx total of 800-850 calories, I’m not so unhappy with the outcome of it but I really don’t want to gain any weight right now :/ and I’ve already put a ton of weight on from being in ‘recovery’ and all the binging I’ve been doing.. but lately I have stopped all that thank god.
I just kinda feel disgusting about eating all that food today but I know tomorrows going to be worse :/ But at least next week I can restrict somewhat as I’ll be away and will not want to eat. :/
The media is so fucked up with the whole aspect on being thin and losing weight. It’s so out of control that it’s causing millions of people to get eating disorders. Society is the one that is ugly and is destroying the beautiful. Not the other way around.
I wish I had a completely flat stomach, I used to when I was at my lowest weight and I need to get back down to that but my stomach is going flatter thankfully.
The horror when you find out that you’ve added up your intake wrong and you’ve actually had more than you thought.
this literally just happened and my heart sank. :[
The hunger pains have kicked in and because of doing well in recovery, I haven’t felt hunger pains in a while, but oh boy have I missed them! It’s like I can feel again, I love them?
(Source: desolate-destruction)
